So I picked this entry because its funny! Ofcourse I thought I was in love with Tex ofcourse and well ofcourse I wasn't I was just goofy!!!! Anyway in this entry we speak of Gary Pauls friend he comes into play again later hehe he wanted to have sex with me for a while and though I never did it wasn't because I didn't want to. Anyway here is the goofy entry read on you will enjoy!
Sorry I have been slacking in the blog dept. I know... anyway with out further adue here is the newest...
10:29 a.m. - 2002-07-27
Slow and Steady is the way my ass! That's what my horoscope said. I LIKE IT HARD AND FAST DAMNIT!!! I don't know why they just can't tell it like it is. Slow and steady is the way to be yeah okay for who my Grandma. Speaking of mY Grandma she attacked me yesterday well not physically but she was all yelling at me because I don't want to be with Keith. SORRY BUT I WANT TO BE WITH TEX NOT RANCID MEAT! Lol that sounds so funny it's like damn I think Keiths Milk has gone sour. LOL GOD I'M SO GOOFY. I guess falling in love makes you goofy or something. Last night I stayed up all night! I only slept for two hours. I was busy out visiting my man at his job. Besides I didn't feel like listening to the constant moaning and groaning of my mom and Jimmy. That just doesn't appeal to me. How would she like it if I brought ole' TEX home and layed him like a puppy. YES LADIES AND GENTLEMEN I SAID LIKE A PUPPY!!!! His friend Gary really likes me. he's got it bad for the Rebel. He's from Mississippi. He also talks like a REB. Damn all this Southern men want me hehe...I met Mat's dad last night he was kinda like rude. I wanted to say something but I figured I would keep my mouth shut. I don't want Mat's mom to get mad at me. I was going to tell him he should treat his son better. He was mean to my MATTY I mean damn you come to see your son you should be like all happy and stuff. I held my tounge can ya believe it. I mean yeah it was kinda late but that wasn't it. I love my MATTY!!! ME and his adopted father Tex will take care of him. Ohh did I tell you we adopted Mat as our child. I allmost got into a fight last night with Doug Failure the one that talks shit about everyone. But I calmed down and shook his hand just as he promised to talk no more shit about me. OR MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS.!!!! Damn well I guess I should go before I get into trouble. You know if it weren't for songs I couldn't spell some words. LOL Okay I'm off for now have funn!!!!!!!!! Love the Diary!
-sexy rebel-
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Thursday, March 25, 2010
I Did Texas
Today I am really late, I kept the name of this entry because it was clever and cute. This is when I came clean with my mom haha. She totally freaked out and told me not to say any more. Keith and I tried one of our many times to date during this entry. Out of the many attempts I told him I wanted to be with him but then I found something I thought was better at the time and ran away. Next we are on to the day I met the Man formally known as Paul.HAHA He now goes by Crissi but more on that later. First about the day I met him, Lacey and I had a bet who would get a guy to go home with them first. Ofcourse I won because I am so forward! First of all before I met Paul I totally wanted to fuck his friend who I will mention again later because he got a little something going on for a minute also! Anyway, I saw Paul and well the rest is down there! So then Keith came knocking on my window because ofcourse my mom wasn't home. Apparantly he thought she was because he could have totally knocked on the door the dumbass. Anyway back to Paul he wanted to tame me, and ofcourse that wasn't happneing any time soon! Well I believe that is all, read on to find out the whole story, will post another tonight!! Lots of love!
2:33 p.m. - 2002-07-23
DUH DUH DUHHHHH!!!!!! It's me again. Hello diary I have missed you. Wow like a ton of things have happened since I've been gone. I mean like really good things. Well my mom had sex with this guy that I did first of all. That kinda like FREAKED ME OUT!!!! I told her about everyone that I have ever had sex with. That like FREAKED HER OUT!!!! But hey that's okay. She always bugs me and tells me I never tell her anything so there she goes I told her everything she would ever want to know about SUPER SEXY! Well me and Keith got together I decided that I would take a shot at being with him. Me and Keith didn't last for more than a few days because... I went down to river days at the tridge. Tridge: A bridge that goes three way's instead of two. You can't drive over it only walk or ride bike or something. But yeah I went to river day's with LACEY WHO LEFT BOOT CAMP AFTER THREE DAYS!!! GO LACEY.. but okay we were down there waiting for Mat when I decided that I was going to take a guy home with me that night. My mom stayed at my Grandma's which was cool. But yeah we were there talking to Doug Failure, Keith, and Greg when this guy came up and started talking to Doug. Now this man wasn't any normal man. He had a THICK Southern accent. WOW!! *Tounge waging back and forth* He's really cute not to tall brown eyes reminds me of Jack Nicholas. wears glasses and is a cowboy. Now what more could a rebel girl want. I mean god talk about the perfect man. Well anyway when Keith turned his head I said well me and my friend Lacey are looking for some guys to take home with us. He smiled and I said can I take you home with me. He said HELL YEAH. So now I got a cowboy to go home with me and one pissed off boyfriend. Keith is a very jelous man and would flip out if he only knew right. Well he got all pissed off and treated me like shit. SOO.... We stayed watched the firworks me my Mat, my new found cowboy, and Lacey. Well after the fireworks we all headed over to my house. I got a little cowboy lovin and sure enough that cowboy spent the night with this here rebel. We some how got on the subject of me being tamed and I told him I wanted to be tamed. I do I'm sick of being a wild and crazy rebel. It's time to be a soft and tame rebel don't ya think. Okay well I fell asleep at like 5:00 in the morning and guess who came tapping on my window. Rancid Meat Keith. EWWWWWWW!! He was all like get your ass out here and talk to me. I was like man I'm sleeping. He was like with who. Then he left. So I went on about my buissness being happy and likin this Texas man that I had found. I even took him to meet my mom. She didn't like him too well and I don't see why. He's the sweetest thing since chocolate Ice cream. I really like him a lot so yep that's how thing's have been going I found yet another man. The only difference is this time I think I got a keeper. Well anyway I'm going to get going that's how things have been going in this crappy town. Pretty damn good for me. Have funn I'll try to write back sometime soon!
-rebel-
2:33 p.m. - 2002-07-23
DUH DUH DUHHHHH!!!!!! It's me again. Hello diary I have missed you. Wow like a ton of things have happened since I've been gone. I mean like really good things. Well my mom had sex with this guy that I did first of all. That kinda like FREAKED ME OUT!!!! I told her about everyone that I have ever had sex with. That like FREAKED HER OUT!!!! But hey that's okay. She always bugs me and tells me I never tell her anything so there she goes I told her everything she would ever want to know about SUPER SEXY! Well me and Keith got together I decided that I would take a shot at being with him. Me and Keith didn't last for more than a few days because... I went down to river days at the tridge. Tridge: A bridge that goes three way's instead of two. You can't drive over it only walk or ride bike or something. But yeah I went to river day's with LACEY WHO LEFT BOOT CAMP AFTER THREE DAYS!!! GO LACEY.. but okay we were down there waiting for Mat when I decided that I was going to take a guy home with me that night. My mom stayed at my Grandma's which was cool. But yeah we were there talking to Doug Failure, Keith, and Greg when this guy came up and started talking to Doug. Now this man wasn't any normal man. He had a THICK Southern accent. WOW!! *Tounge waging back and forth* He's really cute not to tall brown eyes reminds me of Jack Nicholas. wears glasses and is a cowboy. Now what more could a rebel girl want. I mean god talk about the perfect man. Well anyway when Keith turned his head I said well me and my friend Lacey are looking for some guys to take home with us. He smiled and I said can I take you home with me. He said HELL YEAH. So now I got a cowboy to go home with me and one pissed off boyfriend. Keith is a very jelous man and would flip out if he only knew right. Well he got all pissed off and treated me like shit. SOO.... We stayed watched the firworks me my Mat, my new found cowboy, and Lacey. Well after the fireworks we all headed over to my house. I got a little cowboy lovin and sure enough that cowboy spent the night with this here rebel. We some how got on the subject of me being tamed and I told him I wanted to be tamed. I do I'm sick of being a wild and crazy rebel. It's time to be a soft and tame rebel don't ya think. Okay well I fell asleep at like 5:00 in the morning and guess who came tapping on my window. Rancid Meat Keith. EWWWWWWW!! He was all like get your ass out here and talk to me. I was like man I'm sleeping. He was like with who. Then he left. So I went on about my buissness being happy and likin this Texas man that I had found. I even took him to meet my mom. She didn't like him too well and I don't see why. He's the sweetest thing since chocolate Ice cream. I really like him a lot so yep that's how thing's have been going I found yet another man. The only difference is this time I think I got a keeper. Well anyway I'm going to get going that's how things have been going in this crappy town. Pretty damn good for me. Have funn I'll try to write back sometime soon!
-rebel-
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
One of those hot ones
This is when I met Sean the crazy bald man way hot but INSANE... CRAZY FUCKED UP TIME..... UGH anyway read on he was hot totally worth it hehe...
3:25 p.m. - 2002-06-27
GRRRRR I just wrote a huge entry and this computer messed it up. I met my prince except he wasn't on a horse he's straight out of the joint. He's big buff blue eyes lot's of prison tattoo's bad temper. Last night I punched him because he threw me up against the wall and held me by th throat. He's a murderer. He has two tear drop tattoos and from what I can tell he's never been loved. I also beat the hell out of this girl at Grandma's for talking crap to my mom. But yeah he's a really sweet guy when he's not drinking. he treats me like a Queen. I like him a lot he's my thug. my mom called him a thug so I call him my blad headed thug. Ummm... Ohh me and Mat went and played ing the water park uptown. it was fun. I've been swimming a lot. that guy Doug. He died on the last day of school. I really miss him being around he was a great guy. I went to his showing thing though. One of my really good friends got raped yesterday it really bothers me a lot I want to kill the guy. So does Sean *my Thug*. The guy deserves to die. But yeah that's what's been going on. I MISS MY MATTY!!!! HE'S IN CANADA!!!! IT'S LIKE WERE MARRIED. I MISS HIM WHEN HE IS AWAY. Sean call;s him my girlfriend. Yeah I like Sean a lot but if he's gonna treat me like that we aint gonna be together. I don't take shit from anyone. Aint no man going to beat on me I don't like that. He cried and like flipped out after he did it. He just get's in this state when he's mad it's scary. Well I'm going to go buy a Jone's go check Grandma's mail and finf my thug who was supposed to meet me at the park at two. He wasn't there the Butt. But okay I'll write again soon I know it took long enough this time. Byyyeeee I love you diary!!!! ohh hey I also got fired which isint really that big of a deal but it pisses me off. Fuck them any way they were slave driving assholes. ~happy rebel~
3:25 p.m. - 2002-06-27
GRRRRR I just wrote a huge entry and this computer messed it up. I met my prince except he wasn't on a horse he's straight out of the joint. He's big buff blue eyes lot's of prison tattoo's bad temper. Last night I punched him because he threw me up against the wall and held me by th throat. He's a murderer. He has two tear drop tattoos and from what I can tell he's never been loved. I also beat the hell out of this girl at Grandma's for talking crap to my mom. But yeah he's a really sweet guy when he's not drinking. he treats me like a Queen. I like him a lot he's my thug. my mom called him a thug so I call him my blad headed thug. Ummm... Ohh me and Mat went and played ing the water park uptown. it was fun. I've been swimming a lot. that guy Doug. He died on the last day of school. I really miss him being around he was a great guy. I went to his showing thing though. One of my really good friends got raped yesterday it really bothers me a lot I want to kill the guy. So does Sean *my Thug*. The guy deserves to die. But yeah that's what's been going on. I MISS MY MATTY!!!! HE'S IN CANADA!!!! IT'S LIKE WERE MARRIED. I MISS HIM WHEN HE IS AWAY. Sean call;s him my girlfriend. Yeah I like Sean a lot but if he's gonna treat me like that we aint gonna be together. I don't take shit from anyone. Aint no man going to beat on me I don't like that. He cried and like flipped out after he did it. He just get's in this state when he's mad it's scary. Well I'm going to go buy a Jone's go check Grandma's mail and finf my thug who was supposed to meet me at the park at two. He wasn't there the Butt. But okay I'll write again soon I know it took long enough this time. Byyyeeee I love you diary!!!! ohh hey I also got fired which isint really that big of a deal but it pisses me off. Fuck them any way they were slave driving assholes. ~happy rebel~
Monday, March 22, 2010
The Ballad of Keith :)
Well,we go from meeting Keith to our first sex! How exciting. I just had a dream about him also weird huh! Well I guess not considering how horny I was and how so very physically attracted we are to each other. We have always just had this thing. We just want each other! So this amazing sex that made me not hardly be able to walk because it was so amazing started our sexual charades. Well I have about summed this up. Dave was stupid I wish I would have just totally cut things off with him. The big jerk!
4:52 p.m. - 2002-04-25
WOW Guess what happened last night. You'll never guess never ever.!!! I GOT LAID!! WOOOO AND IT FELT SO GOOD! IT WAS WILD HOT SEX!!! Me and Keith went out to the ponds together and decided to do a little magic ya know. I loved every waking minute of it. He is just as wild as I am except he likes to take it slow for a while and I like it hard and fast. It was good all though his dick aint all that big someone sure taught him how to use it. He was still hard when I had to go home. All he could say afterwards was WOW!! He said it like 10 times. I was like yeah I'm good and he was like no your magnificant *teehee** I'm awesome ;) I asked him if he liked it and he said no I loved every minute of it. I HAVE OFFICALLY RANKED MYSELF GOOD IN BED!! Every time I have sex with someone all they can say is WOW now if that's not good then I don't know what is. Hell the first time Dave told me he loved me was right after we first had sex. Damn I'm good. Me and Mat were walking into the library and we seen Mr.Huovinen it was funny I like screamed HI MR.HUOVINEN I sounded like Homer on that one episode of the Simpsons when he says *HERE YA GO!!* HHEHEHE me and Mat say that all the time he found a old letter I wrote to him that said that on it. It's funny. I know that Mat is cracking up now. Ya are aint ya Mat I know it I just do. I'm psychic hehe.. I'm so hyper today I was stuck in traffic like going off on the guy in front of me it was funny. Well I have like ten minutes because I have the car and because I need to go to work. I hope Jason's not mad at me I was supposed to call him last night and go to his hotel with him but to baad BAAA!!! for him because I was bussssyyyyyyy. I have also come to the conclusion that I really should stick with Dave because I love him a lot. I'm smart to I have a C in Humanities hehe I wrote humantities hehehe human tities lol. that's funny. But anyway it's this really hard advanced class. It's really fun though. I am taking my road test next Wendsday that means I'll have my license. Ok I need to go haveeeee funnn and beeeee happyyyy
-really sexy now-
4:52 p.m. - 2002-04-25
WOW Guess what happened last night. You'll never guess never ever.!!! I GOT LAID!! WOOOO AND IT FELT SO GOOD! IT WAS WILD HOT SEX!!! Me and Keith went out to the ponds together and decided to do a little magic ya know. I loved every waking minute of it. He is just as wild as I am except he likes to take it slow for a while and I like it hard and fast. It was good all though his dick aint all that big someone sure taught him how to use it. He was still hard when I had to go home. All he could say afterwards was WOW!! He said it like 10 times. I was like yeah I'm good and he was like no your magnificant *teehee** I'm awesome ;) I asked him if he liked it and he said no I loved every minute of it. I HAVE OFFICALLY RANKED MYSELF GOOD IN BED!! Every time I have sex with someone all they can say is WOW now if that's not good then I don't know what is. Hell the first time Dave told me he loved me was right after we first had sex. Damn I'm good. Me and Mat were walking into the library and we seen Mr.Huovinen it was funny I like screamed HI MR.HUOVINEN I sounded like Homer on that one episode of the Simpsons when he says *HERE YA GO!!* HHEHEHE me and Mat say that all the time he found a old letter I wrote to him that said that on it. It's funny. I know that Mat is cracking up now. Ya are aint ya Mat I know it I just do. I'm psychic hehe.. I'm so hyper today I was stuck in traffic like going off on the guy in front of me it was funny. Well I have like ten minutes because I have the car and because I need to go to work. I hope Jason's not mad at me I was supposed to call him last night and go to his hotel with him but to baad BAAA!!! for him because I was bussssyyyyyyy. I have also come to the conclusion that I really should stick with Dave because I love him a lot. I'm smart to I have a C in Humanities hehe I wrote humantities hehehe human tities lol. that's funny. But anyway it's this really hard advanced class. It's really fun though. I am taking my road test next Wendsday that means I'll have my license. Ok I need to go haveeeee funnn and beeeee happyyyy
-really sexy now-
Sunday, March 21, 2010
ex cons, bowling, falling in love, summer, sex , and Jones
I chose to keep the name of this entry the same because its clever! Anyway this entry is when my life was changed forever! This entry tells when I met Keith OMG! WOW amazing isint it! It was soooo long ago. Actually it was about 8 years ago almost wow! It's been that long? Anyway as this dairy continues we have many many good bad and odd times together Keith and I. We went through togetherness and fights and all sorts of crazy stuff but through it all we have surprisingly remained great GREAT Friends. I miss him I havent seen him in a long time and I am hoping I get to see him soon. Anyway this is the begining entry when it all started. Later on you will see how much this one guy has impacted my whole life. This entry also shows just how confused,young, and stupid I was. But it also tells about when I met Keith which is why I love it :) ENJOY!
3:39 p.m. - 2002-04-21
Hello It's been a long time and I've done a lot of bullshit since I've written to you. Did I tell ya I met a guy named Keith over at the park kinda ugly looks like my ex-boyfriend. Well me and him have been fooling around and the other night he told me that he was in love with me. *not good* But hey that's fine with me. Me and him are fuck buddys I guess you could say. Just while Dave is gone I need a man to hold me and to take care of me well... sexually any way. The other night at work I met this guy named Jason and we flirted for a long time then Friday night after work we went down to the tridge and made out I guess you could say. He has a huge cock woooo!!!! We were going to fuck but it didn't end up happening but that's okay that's what I have Keith for. I got stoned a few weekends ago down at the park with Hodge and Tarra. It was fun! Lacey was there we drank JONES together ohh the love of Jones lol. hmm... what else happened. Ohh last night me and Mat went bowling it was fun I really sucked like a lot. But regardless it was still fun. Only six more weeks of school I can't wait. FREEDOM IS COMING TO MEEEEEEEEEE WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! I haven't been hanging out in the park all that much mainly because it's been cold. Well that and I've been working. Thank god I have to get that car ya know I can't get it with out money right! God I just wrote a lot really fast. That's really about all that's been going on men falling in love with me work and losing at bowling how exciting huh!! When it warms up I'll have more to write about. Right now I'm crossed between Dave and Keith. I really like Keith a lot but I also really LOVE Dave a lot ya know what I mean. I just want to have both of them. But I know that can't happen so I need to get rid of one well Keith obviously. Okay I'm going to get going so I can play on diaryland. I just thought I should write and let you know what's going on in the life of this worn out rebel byeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Rebel huhhhh....
3:39 p.m. - 2002-04-21
Hello It's been a long time and I've done a lot of bullshit since I've written to you. Did I tell ya I met a guy named Keith over at the park kinda ugly looks like my ex-boyfriend. Well me and him have been fooling around and the other night he told me that he was in love with me. *not good* But hey that's fine with me. Me and him are fuck buddys I guess you could say. Just while Dave is gone I need a man to hold me and to take care of me well... sexually any way. The other night at work I met this guy named Jason and we flirted for a long time then Friday night after work we went down to the tridge and made out I guess you could say. He has a huge cock woooo!!!! We were going to fuck but it didn't end up happening but that's okay that's what I have Keith for. I got stoned a few weekends ago down at the park with Hodge and Tarra. It was fun! Lacey was there we drank JONES together ohh the love of Jones lol. hmm... what else happened. Ohh last night me and Mat went bowling it was fun I really sucked like a lot. But regardless it was still fun. Only six more weeks of school I can't wait. FREEDOM IS COMING TO MEEEEEEEEEE WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! I haven't been hanging out in the park all that much mainly because it's been cold. Well that and I've been working. Thank god I have to get that car ya know I can't get it with out money right! God I just wrote a lot really fast. That's really about all that's been going on men falling in love with me work and losing at bowling how exciting huh!! When it warms up I'll have more to write about. Right now I'm crossed between Dave and Keith. I really like Keith a lot but I also really LOVE Dave a lot ya know what I mean. I just want to have both of them. But I know that can't happen so I need to get rid of one well Keith obviously. Okay I'm going to get going so I can play on diaryland. I just thought I should write and let you know what's going on in the life of this worn out rebel byeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Rebel huhhhh....
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Whos a HO!
In this entry its just pretty simple stuff refer to the last entry to find out who these people are. At this time I was just simply waiting for the next exciting thing to happen. Enjoy the read.
12:19 p.m. - 2002-04-06
Never Fear for the rebel is here. Hello I'm so excited I get to see Dave today. Ya know what I have absolutley nothing to feel guilty about either. I want to see Doug the other night and that went well. We didn't have sex or anything. I rubbed his back for like an hour then we kinda laid and cuddled for a long time. So that was good in some way's. I actually really enjoyed it he's a very nice guy besides it felt good I haven't done that in sooo long. I got suspended from work last night because I called someone a dickhead after head after they hung up. I think the only reason Rob didn't fire me is because I've been there for so long. But I'm cool with it. I don't mind having a little time off. *Yuck* there's this fuckin nasty guy that keeps walking by and smiling at me. He's fucking ugly eww....WOO HOO Mat's moving soon I'm excited he will live by me. So that's really cool. I am so happy that i get to see Dave. I miss him so much. I talked to him last night on the phone. He was like what are yo doing. HEHE.... It felt so good to hear his voice it's been like forever since we talked. I don't really have much to write about nothing's been going on. My mom pissed me off because she wouldn't let me use the car. That pisses me off. Because she'll be like here take my car to work just be careful. But then when I'm like mom can I take the car to the library she'll be like no I'm not going to let you use my car anymore. I'm like GODDAMNIT!!!! LET ME TAKE THE FUCKING CAR GODDDD!!!!!!! only in my head would I say that to my mom she would knock me out. Uhh I have nothing to write about. I might ask my Mat to come spend the night. Yes that seems like a good idea. There's nothing else to do. I wonder if he want's to or not. HMM..... *rub's chin* GOD life is so boring when it's cold outside. I have come to the conclusion that my summer has started. POP's was at Doug's and since I seen Mark to I think it's park time again ladies and gentlemen. Everyone is getting that itch to go sit in the park.
Reba's just waiting for the warm weather so we can all be free of not sitting there and having fun. Well Dave should be here soon I better hurry up and finish this. I 'm all most done so well I guess I am done. Are you done writing when you come to the point that you can't think of any more to write about or do you just keep blabbing on about meaningless stuff for a whole hour more. Hmm... I don't know maybe I should just blab on. Does that sound like a good idea. Ohh I know I haven't been to school for two day's because I've been sick. I went to the doctor and the Emergency room and NOBODY KNOW'S WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME!! Maybe I'm nut's or something but wouldn't they be able to figure that out right away? LOL naa.. I some how don't think that's my problem. But if that's not then what is? I don't know but any way I'm gonna get going I finally ran out of things to write about
-Sexy-
12:19 p.m. - 2002-04-06
Never Fear for the rebel is here. Hello I'm so excited I get to see Dave today. Ya know what I have absolutley nothing to feel guilty about either. I want to see Doug the other night and that went well. We didn't have sex or anything. I rubbed his back for like an hour then we kinda laid and cuddled for a long time. So that was good in some way's. I actually really enjoyed it he's a very nice guy besides it felt good I haven't done that in sooo long. I got suspended from work last night because I called someone a dickhead after head after they hung up. I think the only reason Rob didn't fire me is because I've been there for so long. But I'm cool with it. I don't mind having a little time off. *Yuck* there's this fuckin nasty guy that keeps walking by and smiling at me. He's fucking ugly eww....WOO HOO Mat's moving soon I'm excited he will live by me. So that's really cool. I am so happy that i get to see Dave. I miss him so much. I talked to him last night on the phone. He was like what are yo doing. HEHE.... It felt so good to hear his voice it's been like forever since we talked. I don't really have much to write about nothing's been going on. My mom pissed me off because she wouldn't let me use the car. That pisses me off. Because she'll be like here take my car to work just be careful. But then when I'm like mom can I take the car to the library she'll be like no I'm not going to let you use my car anymore. I'm like GODDAMNIT!!!! LET ME TAKE THE FUCKING CAR GODDDD!!!!!!! only in my head would I say that to my mom she would knock me out. Uhh I have nothing to write about. I might ask my Mat to come spend the night. Yes that seems like a good idea. There's nothing else to do. I wonder if he want's to or not. HMM..... *rub's chin* GOD life is so boring when it's cold outside. I have come to the conclusion that my summer has started. POP's was at Doug's and since I seen Mark to I think it's park time again ladies and gentlemen. Everyone is getting that itch to go sit in the park.
Reba's just waiting for the warm weather so we can all be free of not sitting there and having fun. Well Dave should be here soon I better hurry up and finish this. I 'm all most done so well I guess I am done. Are you done writing when you come to the point that you can't think of any more to write about or do you just keep blabbing on about meaningless stuff for a whole hour more. Hmm... I don't know maybe I should just blab on. Does that sound like a good idea. Ohh I know I haven't been to school for two day's because I've been sick. I went to the doctor and the Emergency room and NOBODY KNOW'S WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME!! Maybe I'm nut's or something but wouldn't they be able to figure that out right away? LOL naa.. I some how don't think that's my problem. But if that's not then what is? I don't know but any way I'm gonna get going I finally ran out of things to write about
-Sexy-
Friday, March 19, 2010
The first sign of crazy *and refrences*
In this entry we are introduced to a number of things all of which I will explain now. #1 The park is a park called Grove Park because it's on Grove street! I know how clever hehe. Anyway the park is where all of the Drunks all of which I loved and hung out with hung out at! This is where I found most of my bad business at. I hung out here mostly every single day. Had tons of fun and learned a whole lot. Sometimes I miss it :(
#2 this is Mat! Mat is my gay friend hes amazing! We don't really talk a whole lot any more but at that time we were super close best friends. :) I miss him! We should hang out more often. Anyway through out this you will find his name a lot perhaps I should just make a dictionary of all the people and things and post it in an entry so that to avoid any confusion you can go back to it. No I will simply put refer to whatever entry.
#3 Doug Doug was someone I didn't hang out with a whole lot but we ended up having sex and hanging out some. I believe that I refer to him a few more times through out other entries and eventually a few years down the road he dies.
#4 Mark BIG MISTAKE #1 Mark was someone I totally thought I wanted but really he was not that great at all. He's a total asshole and a big mistake later we have sex and I go through a whole stupid thing with him Yea my first mistake!
#5 Dave BIG MISTAKE #2 Dave is someone I will refer to in entries now and years later. He was my first real relationship I move out of my moms house and in with him we end up fighting every day like physically. He was very abusive and the whole thing ends in me going to Jail for us fighting with each other you will read this later also. We met at the park ofcourse and we ended up kissing because I sneezed and he told me I was going to kiss a fool. Guess he was right because he sure was a fool!
I think that is all for the refrences in this entry we also find that I am stupid! Well atleast just a bit I immediatley jump to say I love someone which I do a lot through out this and it goes back and forth entry to entry. Its crazy I know! But it was part of me I guess. Crazy! Anyway I think that is all enjoy the read!
12:29 p.m. - 2002-04-01
This is for Mat because he said I need to write in my diary more!! Well the day before yesterday I went over to see Doug. Which I'm taking as a bad thing. See Doug is this guy that I've had sex with before. I was thinking yeah Me and him are just friends so it wouldn't hurt to go visit him. Well I did and there was this other guy there that I like to so we sat there and talked for a long time goofed around pierced the other guy Mark's ear and had fun. Well now ya gotta remember that I feel really comfortable around my guy friends. So I put my head on Doug's shoulder because I was tired. I then put my hand on bis leg and the other hand kinda close to his cock. Well I didn't notice my hand was that close until he looked at me and grunted. So I smiled and moved my hand. I moved it the side of his leg and rubbed his leg. Me and him have always had this closness with each other.:) Well we sat there talking smoking dope and being goofy. I didn't smoke anything simply because it's not summer yet. LOL! Mark got up and went to the bathroom and by that time me and Doug were holding hand s. Doug looked at me ran his soft hands across my face and began to kiss me. He whispered that he wanted to make love to me. I love that about him he says make love not FUCK like a lot of guys do. But any way I whispered back me too and we just sat there looking into each others eyes. For a moment I could have swore that me and him were in love. But then Mark came out and asked why we were so quiet. Doug said nothing and the night continued on. It was getting pretty late so I had to take the car home. But I told him that I would come over today at about 11 or 12 and I did. He wasn't home so I waited at the park for a while. Then I got up and walked around after talking to some of my park freak buddy's. I came back and waited some more then I decided to go so here I sit writing to you. I'm kinda like really dissapointed. I would go back but I don't have the car so I'll just wait until tommorow after I get out of school. Then I'll go over there and see what's going on. It's just confusing me because I have just recently realized how much I really love Dave and now I'm second guessing that because I do really like Doug a lot. I mean a lot a lot. He's everything that I want in a man. But I love Dave. I just have this comittment problem I like to have a guy on the side for some reason. I guess it's just to fullfill my lust when I need to get a fix. i really think that Doug is the man on the side for me. It's just turning into more than on the side. I am actually really begining to love Doug. I think I am any way. I'm not really to sure but it's starting to look that way. I've liked him for so long that I'm begining to want to be his full time lover not just part time. Well Easter went well I ate a hell of a lot of food and had fun. I thought about both Doug and Dave all day. UHH....I always say I want love then when it comes to me it's not just one love but two. It's either not enough or to much. Grr...will I ever be satisfied. I need to take classes on how to not cheat on someone. lol that might actually help me. I get to see Dave Saturday so I'll see if that changes my mind about anything or not. I'm going to see Doug tommorow so I'll see what happens with him to. I don't know it's all so confusing well I better go before this get's any longer. It's all ready like a thousand words long hehe... Okay Mat you said you wanted me towrite a entrie well here ya go here's a big ole' entrie for ya. -Sexy-
#2 this is Mat! Mat is my gay friend hes amazing! We don't really talk a whole lot any more but at that time we were super close best friends. :) I miss him! We should hang out more often. Anyway through out this you will find his name a lot perhaps I should just make a dictionary of all the people and things and post it in an entry so that to avoid any confusion you can go back to it. No I will simply put refer to whatever entry.
#3 Doug Doug was someone I didn't hang out with a whole lot but we ended up having sex and hanging out some. I believe that I refer to him a few more times through out other entries and eventually a few years down the road he dies.
#4 Mark BIG MISTAKE #1 Mark was someone I totally thought I wanted but really he was not that great at all. He's a total asshole and a big mistake later we have sex and I go through a whole stupid thing with him Yea my first mistake!
#5 Dave BIG MISTAKE #2 Dave is someone I will refer to in entries now and years later. He was my first real relationship I move out of my moms house and in with him we end up fighting every day like physically. He was very abusive and the whole thing ends in me going to Jail for us fighting with each other you will read this later also. We met at the park ofcourse and we ended up kissing because I sneezed and he told me I was going to kiss a fool. Guess he was right because he sure was a fool!
I think that is all for the refrences in this entry we also find that I am stupid! Well atleast just a bit I immediatley jump to say I love someone which I do a lot through out this and it goes back and forth entry to entry. Its crazy I know! But it was part of me I guess. Crazy! Anyway I think that is all enjoy the read!
12:29 p.m. - 2002-04-01
This is for Mat because he said I need to write in my diary more!! Well the day before yesterday I went over to see Doug. Which I'm taking as a bad thing. See Doug is this guy that I've had sex with before. I was thinking yeah Me and him are just friends so it wouldn't hurt to go visit him. Well I did and there was this other guy there that I like to so we sat there and talked for a long time goofed around pierced the other guy Mark's ear and had fun. Well now ya gotta remember that I feel really comfortable around my guy friends. So I put my head on Doug's shoulder because I was tired. I then put my hand on bis leg and the other hand kinda close to his cock. Well I didn't notice my hand was that close until he looked at me and grunted. So I smiled and moved my hand. I moved it the side of his leg and rubbed his leg. Me and him have always had this closness with each other.:) Well we sat there talking smoking dope and being goofy. I didn't smoke anything simply because it's not summer yet. LOL! Mark got up and went to the bathroom and by that time me and Doug were holding hand s. Doug looked at me ran his soft hands across my face and began to kiss me. He whispered that he wanted to make love to me. I love that about him he says make love not FUCK like a lot of guys do. But any way I whispered back me too and we just sat there looking into each others eyes. For a moment I could have swore that me and him were in love. But then Mark came out and asked why we were so quiet. Doug said nothing and the night continued on. It was getting pretty late so I had to take the car home. But I told him that I would come over today at about 11 or 12 and I did. He wasn't home so I waited at the park for a while. Then I got up and walked around after talking to some of my park freak buddy's. I came back and waited some more then I decided to go so here I sit writing to you. I'm kinda like really dissapointed. I would go back but I don't have the car so I'll just wait until tommorow after I get out of school. Then I'll go over there and see what's going on. It's just confusing me because I have just recently realized how much I really love Dave and now I'm second guessing that because I do really like Doug a lot. I mean a lot a lot. He's everything that I want in a man. But I love Dave. I just have this comittment problem I like to have a guy on the side for some reason. I guess it's just to fullfill my lust when I need to get a fix. i really think that Doug is the man on the side for me. It's just turning into more than on the side. I am actually really begining to love Doug. I think I am any way. I'm not really to sure but it's starting to look that way. I've liked him for so long that I'm begining to want to be his full time lover not just part time. Well Easter went well I ate a hell of a lot of food and had fun. I thought about both Doug and Dave all day. UHH....I always say I want love then when it comes to me it's not just one love but two. It's either not enough or to much. Grr...will I ever be satisfied. I need to take classes on how to not cheat on someone. lol that might actually help me. I get to see Dave Saturday so I'll see if that changes my mind about anything or not. I'm going to see Doug tommorow so I'll see what happens with him to. I don't know it's all so confusing well I better go before this get's any longer. It's all ready like a thousand words long hehe... Okay Mat you said you wanted me towrite a entrie well here ya go here's a big ole' entrie for ya. -Sexy-
Thursday, March 18, 2010
The Ballad of Joe
So as I went to take a post and put it on here today I found that I am not going to post every single entry because the last three before this were stupid! I guess I will just take the one's that aren;t stupid and boring. This entry tells the story of the first Joe. At the time I was with Jeff I guess you can call it. He was the one who taught me everything I know about sex! Though he is very yucky at the time I didnt think so I guess. I am glad that I had him to teach me everything because apparantly thats how I became amazing. Well this tells the story of how I ended up having sex with Joe which ultimatley ended me and Jeff and started my crazy years.By the way before we go any furhter let me give you some facts!
FACT #1: My Grandma is a old alcoholic CRAZY! Lady! She has always been insane and acts crazy all the tme!
FACT #2: Neither of my parents had any idea about all of this so it isint they're fault though some would say it is.
FACT #3: Though I was a bit of a whore it was all in good fun!
6:55 p.m. - 2002-03-19
What's been going on well probably nuttin huh your a diary you don't do anything except sit here and wait fo me to come and write to you. you poor starved thing you can't go out and have fun. FOR GOD'S SAKE YOU CAN'T EVEN HAVE SEX!! AHHH..... Well the same goes for me to so don't feel all that bad. I'm still searching for the one who's going to do more than just make my thighs quiver. Spring break's all most here and I'm busy..busy...busy. I'm going to go to my Dad's house which should prove to be a BAD experience. Why well here's a story for ya. Are ya listening? Okay good. I went over to see my Grandmas new apartment one day. I was with my mom and Mat. But anyway she wasn't there so we sat in the driveway for a minute because we saw someone walking down the road. It was her and this fucking hot hot hot guy mmm...... okay well we went in and we had to sit on the floor because she only had 2 chairs. Well me and Mat were goofing around and Mat happened to notice that this guy had a big package. We always seem to notice things like that. Well that night my mom ended up taking him home and it turned out he lived by my dad in Beverton. Weeks went by and I din't see him for a looooooooooong time. Then I had to go to the school administration building to fight for orchesta right's and stuff. That was right down the road from my Grandma so I walked down there and he was there. I gave him a hug. WOO a hug. Well my Grandma was pretty drunk so she dozed off on to bed. When she did Joe looked at me and began to tell me how beutiful I was since I had a boyfriend for all most 4 years I shrugged it off. Then he got up and grabbed me and kissed me on the cheek. That I didn't find to be that big of a deal. But then he kissed me. A real big wet kiss to. The thing was I loved it WOOOO DID I EVER!!! GOD JUST THINKING ABOUT THAT MAN TURNS ME ON. But anyway to shorten it up a bit a few day's later we fucked and HE had A HUGGEE 10' COCK and I loved all 10 of it. Since then I've only seen him once we didn't have sex but we did a few other things. But anyway I'm going to my dad's house which isint to far away from my secret lover so I'm going to be in heat lol. Well not really but I'll just be kinda wantin something but that's okay. Really spring break won't be too much fun just some wandering around in the sun. Wow this is really long hehe... that was the wrong thing to say. It's allmost summer time. This is about the time my life actually get's more exciting. The winter is boring in the life of this rebel. AHH Mat's old english teacher Mr.Peltier or how ever you spell it is here he looks a lot like Humpty Dumpty with Suspenders lol... I'm serious he really does. It's funny. Ohh yeah I am over the whole teacher thing. It's not that big of a deal any more. I don't really want him that much any more. I would jump at the chance if he asked but I'm not like I was before. So that's really good huh... well I suppose I better go I need to go home and eat. Have fun doing nothing maybe Friday I'll take ya out Diary!! -Sexy-
FACT #1: My Grandma is a old alcoholic CRAZY! Lady! She has always been insane and acts crazy all the tme!
FACT #2: Neither of my parents had any idea about all of this so it isint they're fault though some would say it is.
FACT #3: Though I was a bit of a whore it was all in good fun!
6:55 p.m. - 2002-03-19
What's been going on well probably nuttin huh your a diary you don't do anything except sit here and wait fo me to come and write to you. you poor starved thing you can't go out and have fun. FOR GOD'S SAKE YOU CAN'T EVEN HAVE SEX!! AHHH..... Well the same goes for me to so don't feel all that bad. I'm still searching for the one who's going to do more than just make my thighs quiver. Spring break's all most here and I'm busy..busy...busy. I'm going to go to my Dad's house which should prove to be a BAD experience. Why well here's a story for ya. Are ya listening? Okay good. I went over to see my Grandmas new apartment one day. I was with my mom and Mat. But anyway she wasn't there so we sat in the driveway for a minute because we saw someone walking down the road. It was her and this fucking hot hot hot guy mmm...... okay well we went in and we had to sit on the floor because she only had 2 chairs. Well me and Mat were goofing around and Mat happened to notice that this guy had a big package. We always seem to notice things like that. Well that night my mom ended up taking him home and it turned out he lived by my dad in Beverton. Weeks went by and I din't see him for a looooooooooong time. Then I had to go to the school administration building to fight for orchesta right's and stuff. That was right down the road from my Grandma so I walked down there and he was there. I gave him a hug. WOO a hug. Well my Grandma was pretty drunk so she dozed off on to bed. When she did Joe looked at me and began to tell me how beutiful I was since I had a boyfriend for all most 4 years I shrugged it off. Then he got up and grabbed me and kissed me on the cheek. That I didn't find to be that big of a deal. But then he kissed me. A real big wet kiss to. The thing was I loved it WOOOO DID I EVER!!! GOD JUST THINKING ABOUT THAT MAN TURNS ME ON. But anyway to shorten it up a bit a few day's later we fucked and HE had A HUGGEE 10' COCK and I loved all 10 of it. Since then I've only seen him once we didn't have sex but we did a few other things. But anyway I'm going to my dad's house which isint to far away from my secret lover so I'm going to be in heat lol. Well not really but I'll just be kinda wantin something but that's okay. Really spring break won't be too much fun just some wandering around in the sun. Wow this is really long hehe... that was the wrong thing to say. It's allmost summer time. This is about the time my life actually get's more exciting. The winter is boring in the life of this rebel. AHH Mat's old english teacher Mr.Peltier or how ever you spell it is here he looks a lot like Humpty Dumpty with Suspenders lol... I'm serious he really does. It's funny. Ohh yeah I am over the whole teacher thing. It's not that big of a deal any more. I don't really want him that much any more. I would jump at the chance if he asked but I'm not like I was before. So that's really good huh... well I suppose I better go I need to go home and eat. Have fun doing nothing maybe Friday I'll take ya out Diary!! -Sexy-
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Don't I still wish I was young!
This was my very first diary entry I was 16 years old Real wild! hehe Insane... maybe just a bit had raging hormones, and basically was a modern day Lolita to put it lightly. I always have a major obsession with Summer because well thats when all the fun stuff happens and it always makes me do bad things! So before you read this one be prepared to be shocked and amazed and pray just pray that your children turn out nothing like me hehe...
DATE: 2002-02-20
Hey it's my first time writing and I don't have much to say so I guess I'll tell you what's on my mind. Today we had an assembly at school which left me pumped. It was great this teacher that I have been absolutly dying to fuck was dancing and shaking his ass with all of the other teachers. UHH... I wanted to just jump up and attack him. He's so sexy. He just has this way of turning me on.I don't what it is but I love it. It's great. But any way I went to pick up Mat after school today. It was cool we rode around then I seen Jim. He's this really great guy that I've fucked in the past like all summer he was my fuck buddy. He gave me a hug and it made me think about how much I've really missed him. I have missed him a lot mainly because we used to have so much fun together. It was like summer lovin in the movie "Grease" *summer lovin had me a blast* *summer lovin happened so fastt* lol I'm so goofy. Well I guess I should just come out of the closet right away. I'm not GAY but I like older men any where from 30 and up. I don't know why I just have my whole life. I guess it's kinda like coming out of the closet it shocks people just as much as that does.I don't know why it's not like it's something terribly horrible. Sure I love to fuck old men but whats so bad about that. Their way more mature than the younger one's and besides they have bigger cocks hehe.. as you can see I'm a very horny person. THATS BECAUSE I HARDLY EVER HAVE SEX ANYMORE!! It really sucks. Well I guess I should be going now hope everyone like's the first entry and if ya don't then you can kiss my ass -sexy-
DATE: 2002-02-20
Hey it's my first time writing and I don't have much to say so I guess I'll tell you what's on my mind. Today we had an assembly at school which left me pumped. It was great this teacher that I have been absolutly dying to fuck was dancing and shaking his ass with all of the other teachers. UHH... I wanted to just jump up and attack him. He's so sexy. He just has this way of turning me on.I don't what it is but I love it. It's great. But any way I went to pick up Mat after school today. It was cool we rode around then I seen Jim. He's this really great guy that I've fucked in the past like all summer he was my fuck buddy. He gave me a hug and it made me think about how much I've really missed him. I have missed him a lot mainly because we used to have so much fun together. It was like summer lovin in the movie "Grease" *summer lovin had me a blast* *summer lovin happened so fastt* lol I'm so goofy. Well I guess I should just come out of the closet right away. I'm not GAY but I like older men any where from 30 and up. I don't know why I just have my whole life. I guess it's kinda like coming out of the closet it shocks people just as much as that does.I don't know why it's not like it's something terribly horrible. Sure I love to fuck old men but whats so bad about that. Their way more mature than the younger one's and besides they have bigger cocks hehe.. as you can see I'm a very horny person. THATS BECAUSE I HARDLY EVER HAVE SEX ANYMORE!! It really sucks. Well I guess I should be going now hope everyone like's the first entry and if ya don't then you can kiss my ass -sexy-
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
This is just the begining
So This is my blog yay!!! I was going to start my diaryland transfers tonight but guess what? DIARYLAND HAS LIKE DISAPPEARED! Yea not cool at all I am kind of pissed I have years of entries on there I think they go back as far as 2002 or 2001. So needless to say I am going to be preatty pissed off if I can't get back to diaryland to take my entries. Well that is all:) You will get to know more about me hopefully soon. If diaryland doesnt come back then I will just make something new...
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